I can not bring this self to desire new life.
Not when so much stock has accumulated in the old.
I do not fear the cold.
The winter we step out from under
into open bare treetop spring.
I have no qualm with my ape ancestry.
In fact, it better explains our species.
Our tribal colorisms and regional warfare.
Our instinctive challenge to anything new,
or different, or fundamentally not already ours.
Not our fast talk and plastic cars,
dictionaries and missionaries and doctors
toiling over life and death and credit checks.
Pastors organizing potluck dinner dusting
torture tools turned clean untested symbol.
Simple, for us millennials, to pack up our stuff and run
into new towns, new habitats, new jobs and prospects
and adventures breeding misadventure.
But I can’t do it.
Am I not like my peers?
Do I not share their fears?
Their crippling paralysis in the face
of any form of honestly given criticism.
I run from nothing.
I live where a death framed family lived
farm where they did
rusted old half-broken tools.
I prefer used.
Even wasted. Tedious. Outdated.
My life is not for the new.
Because there has never been such a thing.
Just perception. Since there was ever an us,
there has been one-sided perspective.
It defines our lives.
To the point we started building fences
just to make for greener grass
on the other side.